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someone who does not exist
All things move towards their end



"Hometown"

He talked of tortured souls
So outrageous the toll

You can lose all you have
He refused to give in to the town that takes all
Survive, you must have the will
This movie doesn't end the way we want all the time
Then he shouts at the moon
Now She's gone, and fear has overcome
He was walking the mile, he was walking alone

Four and Twenty Deadbirds, they bleed upon the nest
There was no time for reason, they had no sign of a threat
Now it's too late for me, this town will eventually take me
Now it's too late for me, this town will win

Through this fog they come along
Dark creatures singing a terrible song
The rest of the bar laughed at him
Only I felt my hope grow dim
They found him dead the next day
No more stories from him, I heard them say
Dark creatures singing a terrible song
The rest of the bar laughed at him
Only I felt my hope grow dim
They found him dead the next day
No more stories from him, I head them say
We blamed bad luck for his fate
Only I felt terror so great



"One More Soul To The Call"

Enough...
With the light...
Tell me one...
More time...
My blood...
Your line...

Is this you, inside?

Death... to the living...
The flame has no living heart

In the order, of life, they know you there...
As you saw it, your plan, a real shot in the dark...

Came a little, too late, it's over...

Calling, the children...
Conception...
And dying...
Silent, but screaming!

Damage done to the flesh, what they said...
In the name of the...
Damage done to the heart, is the start, of the end!
Damage done to my soul, and you know, it knows where my...
Damage done to my life, may seem loud, as the chaos!

You're here, you're gone...
It's not fair, I'm lost...
Your god, your fear...
Was it worth...
The price?

Pray. For the children!
You lost along the way
Still remember, the names, and faces...
Cold. And abandoned
They cry, their fate put in your hands

When it's over, they come to haunt you...

Wasted... Confusion...
Deadly... Illusion...
Nightmare... Intrusion!

One more soul to the call, for all...
In silence...
Comes two more souls to the call, for all...
And in time...
Three more souls to the call, they bond...
Unknowing that four more souls to the call, won't be all, and you know it!

Sacrifice...
Wasted life...
Death in me...
Redefines...
Someone, chooses you...
Lucky one, close your eyes, your family knows you're here!

Calling, the children...
Conception...
And dying...
Silent, but screaming!

Damage done to the flesh, what they said...
In the name of the...
Damage done to the heart, is the start, of the end!
Damage done to my soul, and you know, it knows where my...
Damage done to my life, may seem loud, as the chaos!

One more soul to the call, for all...
In silence...
Comes two more souls to the call, for all...
And in time...
Three more souls to the call, they bond...
Unknowing that four more souls to the call, won't be all, and you know it!

"Shot Down In Flames"

Swear at the walls
They make fun of me
Day after day
Eyes that follow me
Is it you again?
Can this be the end forever?

See through your eyes
Child's heart that cries
Raven flight, flies
And the meaning dies
As it was before
It will be no more
Time does that

Say it again
Like you said
Does it sound like you?
Where are you now?
Does the young one know you're here?
Breath on the glass
Once again
Feel her pull you in
Nobody leaves
You won't let you
You're afflicted

Can you hide who you are?
Take a look at yourself
Can you stop what will be?
You think running will help?
Can't give up on the past
When the past never ends
Now the dead that you raised
Live in me

What have you done?
You're insane
Can you bring God down?
Plans that you made
Don't include me
One more time
But I will dance
On the wind
Breathing in your heart
Your sacrifice
Wasn't wanted
Still you try

Say it again
Like you said
Does it sound like you?
Where are you now?
Does the young one know you're here?
Breath on the glass
Once again
Feel her pull you in
Nobody leaves
You won't let you
You're afflicted

"Hell Frozen Rain"

In your mind's eye lives a memory
Hard to find, blinded by sorrow
And her cold voice sings a melody
Hear her sing, hell frozen rain falls down

She can't hear your voice.
She can't hear you call
You have burned your choice
If you're here, can you prove you're really here?

There is a moment in time
When all the cards that you've played divide
You feel the temperature dive
And all your demons inside come crashing through

In your mind's eye lives a memory
Hard to find, blinded by sorrow
And a strange voice sings a melody
Hear it sing, hell frozen rain falls down

Everything is wrong
This is not my home, is it?
Do I know your face?
Does my mind wish to forget?

A toast to lonely souls
Who never could take control of life
And all the missing we love
I hope the darkness they find will give them light

In your mind's eye lives a memory
Hard to find, blinded by pain
And a cold voice sings a melody
Hear it sing, hell frozen rain

Our safe hearts feeling dangerous
Missing truth frozen in lies
Is your family just a memory?
Once again, hell frozen rain falls down

Of all these pieces of broken dreams
This one that scares and confuses me
If all these things that you say are true
You should be someone I always knew

In your mind's eye lives a memory
Hard to find, blinded by pain
And your father sings a melody
Hear him sing, hell frozen rain

Our safe hearts feeling dangerous
Missing truth frozen in lies
Are your loved ones just a memory?
Burning pain, hell frozen rain falls down
Down...

Life is cold here. Empty hallowed ground
In my head blood-colored rain falls down

"Soldier's Orders"

It started long before me...
I never saw it coming...

The distance, the promise...
A state of isolation...

And in my darkest nightmare,
Things that I can't remember...

The answer, is drowning, this pain will last forever.

My father...
His duty...
His orders...
My brother...
The promise...
The breaking...
Rejection...
Deception...
Reflection...
Conception...
The listening...
The torture...
The madness...
The sadness...
Can this be?
Or is it?


The shadow cast before me...
A walk inside your circle...

Protect me...
Correct me...
You got your orders, soldier...

Inside my head is humming...
Sometimes I hear them coming...

The power...
Believing...
The hate I hate believing...

Where is this?
It can't be...
Who are you?
I know you...
You wouldn't...
Or would you?
Don't fight me!
Ignite me!
My trigger...
Your finger...
Your darkness...
I know it...
Come forward!
I've seen it!
I mean it!

Your power, is over!

I've come to change the order!
My training, is perfect!

I'm back, again, your promise, is broken!
I drank your sacred water, my mission, is holy!
I'm back.


My father...
His duty...
His orders...
My brother...
The promise...
The breaking...
Rejection...
Deception...
Reflections...
Conception...
The listening...
The torture...
The madness...
The sadness...
Can this be...?

Your power, is over!

I've come to change the order
My training, is perfect!
I'm back, again!

Your promise, is broken!
I've drank your sacred water, my mission, is holy!

I'm back.

The hate I hate believing...
The hate I hate believing...

I never saw it coming...
I never saw it coming...

The hate I hate believing...
The hate I hate believing...

I never saw it coming...
I never saw it coming...

You have your orders, soldier...

"This Sacred Line"

s it me?
This time...
Am I too far?

Did I cross...
That line...
Getting hard to tell...

Different day, and another war...
Orders shifts, stumbles down...

Standing strong, with your sacred line...
With your cold, sacred line...

Genocide... Unfolds...
I forgive all...

Ring of thorned...
It shines... I refuse to fall.

Standing still, in this rocky boat...
Chase my mind, takes it's toll...

Something lost...
Is now found again...
I return to my soul...

This line, that can't be broken...
This line, never will be crossed again.

Inside, will be forgiven...
This light, affected by the innocent.

Opposite of what hear...
Dying is the least of fears...

Can't give up!
We have come to far to ever run away!
We have fear to swallow!

Can't let go!
Be prepared for anything...
There's something wrong!

And the worst is yet to come.

This line, that can't be broken...
This line, that never will be crossed again.

Inside, will be forgiven...
This light, affected by the innocent.

This line, that can't be broken...
This line, that never will be crossed again.

Inside, will be forgiven...
This light, affected by the innocent.

Runnin' by another line...
When you cross the sacred line.


"Waiting For You"

Your gentle voice I hear
Your words echo inside me
You said you long for me, that you love me
And I want to see you too, feels just like I'm falling
Is there nothing I can do, wonder if you hear my calling

I'm here and waiting for you
Where are you, I can't find you
I'm here and waiting for you
I'll wait forever for you

Mom's gone to Heaven now
Why won't she come back down
Does she have someone she loves more than me
I thought I could love you better, we were always together
If we took some time apart you would finally know my heart

I'm here and waiting for you
Where are you, I can't find you
I'm here and waiting for you
I'll wait forever for you

I fell in love with you and now you're gone
There's nothing left within my lonely room without you


"I Want Love"

All right, let's do this

One, two, three

(start singing)
I want a cup that overflows with love
Although it's not enough to fill my heart
I want a barrel full of love
Although I know it's not enough to fill my heart

I want a river full of love
But then I know the holes will still remain
I need an ocean full of love
Although I know the holes will still remain

And this Swiss-cheese heart knows
Only kindness can fill its holes
And love can dry my tears
As pain disappears

I need a miracle and not someone's charity
One drop of love from him
And my heart's in ecstasy
The high that is sending me
Is most likely ending me
I need a miracle and not someone's charity now

Fill up my heart with love
Oh, you'd be amazed at how little I need from him
to feel complete here and now
Stirring within me
are these feelings I can't ignore
I need a miracle and that's what I'm hoping for

I need a miracle and not someone's charity
One drop of love from him
And my heart's in ecstasy
The high that is sending me
Is most likely ending me
I need a miracle and not someone's charity now
Oh, baby

Anybody's love but his will never fill this space within me
Now doctor, give me what I need to free my heart from misery

"Letter - from the Lost Days"

A letter to my future self
Am I still happy, I began
Have I grown up pretty
Is Daddy still a good man
Am I still friends with Colleen
I'm sure that I'm still laughing, aren't I, aren't I

Hey there to my future self
If you forget how to smile
I have this to tell you
Remember it once in awhile
Ten years ago your past self
Prayed for your happiness
Please don't lose hope

Oh, oh what a pair me and you
Put here to feel joy, not be blue
Sad times and bad times see them through
Soon we will know if it's for real what we both feel

Though I can't know for sure how things worked out for us
No matter how hard it gets, you have to realize:
We weren't put on this earth to suffer and cry
We were made for being happy—

So...be happy...for me, for you...please
Oh, oh what a pair me and you
Put here to feel joy, not be blue
Sad times and bad times see them through
Soon we will know if it's for real what we both feel

We were put here on this earth, put here to feel joy
We were put here on this earth, put here to feel joy
We were put here on this earth, put here to feel joy
We were put here on this earth, put here to feel joy


"Tender Sugar"

I run, I fall, what ripped away, check my body
Was it body or soul
The darkness fades, fades to light
Disappearing now, disappears from the night

And all these nightmares I once had as a child
The morning always came, it came too late
What did my mind forget, forget to hide
Could the nightmare be awake, I don't know

In or out, up or down, never know its an illusion
Round and round, on and on, every day spins my confusion

Not again, not again, not again, this dream I can't awake
What is real, what is real, what is real, it's getting hard for me to take
What I need, what I need, what I need, a little somethin' I rely
And the white sugar gently hides me

Oh the sweet sugar saves me, it's the room that confines me
Confines me...sweet sugar

Yesterday back and forth, broken door no longer opens
Breaking down, need it now, mother's sugar always loves me

Not again, not again, not again, this dream I can't awake
What is real, what is real, what is real, it's getting hard for me to take
What I need, what I need, what I need, a little somethin' I rely
And the white sugar gently hides me

Oh the sweet sugar saves me, it's the room that confines me

"When You're Gone"


Did I wait too long?
Moments gone and now wasted
Coming back to home
It feels wrong, changes haunt me
Ends I came before
Leave me lost, confused, searching
Everything I own
Takes me back nowhere

Objects in my room
They might be telling me something soon
Still you ask me how I feel
I feel lost - that's how I feel

I know, I know
There's something I've forgotten
Like a time, a place
A shattered memory
For me it's more
Than I can seem to handle
It's the pain, my mind
Is writing on the wall
The truth, you lied
You said it can convince you to
Give up, this place
Will never set me free
Enough, I know
I really did it this time
It's a sign, this place
Is somewhere I should be

Taking a piece of my heart
When you're gone

Are my eyes too blind
To find illusions from deep inside, growing?
What I lost to find
And what I find brings me here

I know, I know
There's something I've forgotten
Like a time, a place
A shattered memory
For me it's more
Than I can seem to handle
It's the pain, my mind
Is writing on the wall
The truth, you lied
You said it can convince you to
Give up, this place
Will never set me free
Enough, I know
I really did it this time
It's a sign, this place
Is somewhere I should be

Taking a piece of my heart
That's how it always starts
When you're gone

"Acceptance"

Time flows
Nobody knows
The years go by
Where we go,
Alone, from here

Night falls
Strange-colored walls
My eyes, deceive
What is wrong
With me?

Deep in the night you think everything's right
Tell it to yourself. Say it's just a nightmare
Something is telling you nothing can change where you are
Again

Why should it matter, your dreams of a child?
Innocence is gone. Only fear to play with
Faces are changing, but nothing is changing the pain
Too late
Two steps I take, getting closer, and closer
And one more breath I take, sends me further back

Over and over it calls to your soul
Say it isn't so. Emptiness surrounds you
No one can help, if the angels refuse to come here
Who's there?

Cold-faded photos, they lay by your side
Something in my room. Never mind the reason
Visions are lying and reasons just live to survive
This time

The cold. The light
The fear returning
It's not the ice
It's fear that's chilling you


"You're Not Here"

Blue sky to forever
The green grass blows in the wind, dancing
It would be a much better sight with you, with me
If you hadn't met me, I'd be fine on my own, baby
Never felt so lonely, then you came along

So now what should I do, I'm strung out, addicted to you
My body aches, now that you're gone
My supply fell trough

Gladly gave me everything you had and more
You craved my happiness
When you made me feel joy it made you smile
But now I feel your stress
Love was never meant to be such a crazy afair, no
And who has time for tears
Never thought I'd sit around and cry for your love
'till now


"Your Rain"

Dancing alone again, again
The rain falling.
Only the scent of you remains to dance with me.
Nobody showed me how to return the love you give to me.
Mom never hugged me.
Dad loves a stranger more than me.

I never wanted to ever bring you down.
All that I need are some simple loving words.
You touched my body once, it burns me still softly.
Never forget never again we'll be. I cried.

Out of my head and I don't know what I found.
Over and over I feel it break me down.

On the sidewalk of the city
Are my screams just a whisper?
Busy people going nowhere
See me soak in the rain.
No compassion, nothing matters.
My resistence is waning
Like a flower in the basement waiting for a lonely death.

"Always On My Mind"

Maybe I didn't love you
Quite as often as I could have
And maybe I didn't treat you
Quite as good as I should have

If I made you feel second best
I'm so sorry I was blind
You were always on my mind
You were always on... on my mind

Maybe I didn't hold you
All those lonely, lonely times
And I guess I never told you
I'm so happy that you're mine

Little things I should have said and done
I just never took the time
You were always on my mind
You were always on... on my mind

Tell... tell me
Tell me that your sweet love hasn't died
Give... give me
One more chance to keep you satisfied

Little things I should have said and done
I just never took the time
You were always on my mind
You were always on...
You were always on...
You were always on my mind
You were always on... on my mind

"Room Of Angel"

You lie, silent there before me.
Your tears, they mean nothing to me,
The wind howling at the window,
The love you never gave,
I give to you,
Really don't deserve it,
But now, there's nothing you can do.
So sleep, in your only memory
Of me, my dearest mother...

Here's a lullaby to close your eyes.
[Goodbye]
It was always you that I despised.
I don't feel enough for you to cry,[oh no]
Here's a lullaby to close your eyes,
Goodbye

So insignificant, sleeping dormant deep inside of me,
Are you hiding away, lost, under the sewers,
Maybe flying high, in the clouds?
Perhaps you're happy without me...
So many seeds have been sown in the field,
And who could sprout up so blessedly,
If I had died I would have never felt sad at all,
You will not hear me say 'I'm sorry'
Where is the light, wonder if it's weeping somewhere?

And here's a lullaby to close your eyes.
Goodbye
It was always you that I despised.
I don't feel enough for you to cry,[oh no]
Here's a lullaby to close your eyes,
Goodbye,


"Rain Of Brass Petals"

i am the first
a shadow at the end
of the hallway
i spin the carousel
the laughter recedes away
my finger on your lips
i stole something precious

i am the second
alone in a faceless crowd
a human caught
in monochrome dreams
i scream to wake up
my voice drowns deep underground
only the dead can hear me,
see me

i am the third
a master
a sentinel of awakeness
i hold truth like a torch
shadows flicker before me
rapid eye follow the
chain of thought
until the silence ends

"Cradle Of Forest"

There deep, deep in the forest night
Children dance the waltz
They laugh whispering hand in hand,
Just like children like to do
Their eyes, what are they looking for,
White dress flutters the beat
Their song starting to make some sense,
Only if you're listening

Dance, dance like the butterflies,
Shadows appear right before my eyes
Sounds echo the obsurd,
Hard to explain something that I heard

Now hear the forest talking, insects and birds
Does the scent of soil and beast
Breath the life into the animal you hide
It's a great illusion one never knows
When you think you're really alone
Feel the eyes of someone looking in on you

Again, see how the children play,
Red moon colors the trees
Their feet, innocent rustling sounds,
Playful dreamlike fantasies

Dance, dance like the butterflies,
Shadows appear right before my eyes
Sounds echo the obsurd,
Hard to explain something that I heard

Now hear the forest talking, insects and birds
Does the scent of soil and beast
Breath the life into the animal you hide
It's a great illusion one never knows
When you think you're really alone
Feel the eyes of someone looking in on you

"Hole In The Sky"

Oh yeah, I've been here before
I can see it with eyes closed
Shadows that look like blood
Dead as far as the mind goes

Fear that comes from my head
Lives in the mirror
Why won't you let me out?
Does the evil excite you?

Haven't you had enough?
Does the feeling control you?
Just when I think I'm okay
Shadows surround me

All of the monster you are
I can feel in my head

Let me out, let me out
Let me out, let me out
Let me out, let me out
Let me out, let me out

No more, I'm through
You win, I'm dead
You're sorry, sorry?
No you're a lie!

It's over,
Nothing here left alive

Let me out, let me out
Let me out, let me out
Let me out, let me out
Let me out, let me out

"Old Friend"

Where have you been?
You are a different man...

You disappeared...
And just like that, you're here...

So did your time, away from here...
Renew your soul... To make you strong...
For your return I thought you knew...

It feels good, just holding you.

She's gone, I feel...
I think there's something wrong...
Have you seen her?
She's been away too long...

So look around...
This dismal place...
Some things have changed...
What can't be new to them...

I'm glad you're here.
I see you're well.

And welcome home...
Embrace your hell.

In a town hungry for the lonely...
Lost, innocent child...
Forbidden life taken in a moment...
Life, too late for saving...

...or just in time.

In my mind, places keep returning...
I still see her smile.
And the dark fear that I am feeling...
Dies once in a while...

And as the moon leads me through the madness...
There, standing alone.

I feel a breath, coming from the shadows...
Streets, almost alive...

I heard a sound (I heard a sound!)
I heard a voice (I heard a voice!)
Why, making a choice?* (Why, do you have no choice?)

I need to know...
I need to know...
I need to know...

And all these words take me back to my home...

Can I trust who you say that you are?
And who I am now... (And who am I now...?)

Too late for me...
...or just in time.

"Blow Back"

Daylight
Dark light
Blinds me
Am I fading in light?

I can see through the fear, nice try
Just a matter of time, it's another lie
When the fire turns cold, who's here?
It sure looks like it's me

Closer to the source of my pain
Mirror yours

Oh, I'm not myself
My God, what have you done?
Oh, the memories of them keep coming home...

And the nightmares are good, so good
Will I ever wake up?
Am I here right now?
Was the question too hard?
Dad was right
He said nightmares are good

Mommy, Am I dead now?
Tell me
Why do we...?

"Shadows Of The Damned"

Tables of tide
Nothing is learned
So real tragedy
Love wasted
Up from the floor
Spirit one's more
A final learning process falling down
You might scream,
You might shake
Could be a lonely mistake
And it's true we are through
This is the last stop for
Heaven or Hell
How can we tell?
Or real dead collective
Lost perspective
Nothing is real
Nothing to feel
And when the pain consumes you
Death protect you
Down here...




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